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EDITH ♡ 23 ♡ SHE
05/31/2001

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hello! my name is edith ^__^ you have stumbled across my website! i like cute things, vocalsynth, and jfashion. i'm a lifestyle girly kei wearer & a beginner lolita! my favorite sanrio characters are sugarminuet, my melody, little twin stars, and cogimyun. i am also a self-shipper! my fictional other is diluc ragnvindr from genshin impact. i love him very much. my favorite food is shrimp nigiri & my favorite dessert is cheesecake! unfortunately, i am still fictionkin in my 20s. my main ID is marry kozakura :) i also identify as chii (chobits) and a few other secret ones ♡

i go by very many names depending on different websites! sorry if there is any confusion. call me whatever you'd like if you know my other names!

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Once, long ago, I lost something precious to me. I went through... ...something very painful in the past. Something very, very painful. Even now, my heart hurts. Even now, the pain still lingers... ...from when I lost what was precious to me. But I am still searching. Still searching for that thing most precious. I am me. I am one of them. Because I am me. Because I am not a human. Even so. Because it is so. Someone who loves me because I am me. Someone who I'll love because he is him. The "someone just for me." I know that... ...I am you... ...and you are me. That's how I know that... Inside of me, I'm one full person. I am happy when that person smiles. I am happy when that person is near. Yes. I am happy... ...when that person is happy. That person is special, different from other people. 'You found it!' 'The thing that makes that person special... ...that makes him different from the rest...is that he is him.' I found him. The person that's precious and special... The "someone just for me." I hope that person finds them. The things that he can't do because he is him. The things that he can do because he is him. I have found him. I fell in love with him because he is that person. Hopefully, he will find them. The things that I can do because I am me. The things that I can't do because I am me. That person will find them. And then... ...hopefully he will love me... ...because I am me. Out of all people and all of them... ...I want him to find me. And I want him to love me. This feeling inside of me... ...is very soft. But sometimes it hurts. This feeling inside of me... ...is very soft. But sometimes it hurts. I become full of this feeling when I think of that person. 'Do you feel that way about everybody?' No, only when I think of that person. 'What happens when you're with that person?' I get warm... ..like I'm glowing inside. 'What if you can't be together?' It hurts. It really, really hurts right here. 'Like you're about to die?' We can't die. We can't die because we're not alive. 'Perhaps not.' 'But it feels the same as if we could.' 'Because we are them.' 'I hope we can be happy someday... ...when you find your "someone just for you."' But... ...if we don't become happy... ...if the "someone just for me" knows all the things I can and cannot do because I am me... ...and he still doesn't choose me, then... Then... I will have to decide what to do... ...about you... ...and about us. 'What is wrong?' It hurts. If the "someone just for me" does not choose me... ...I'm afraid the hurt right here will be so bad... ...that I'll stop working. 'It's a powerful feeling, isn't it?' 'A hurt so strong it can cause you to break.' There are no people in this city... ...but through their windows, everyone looks happy inside. Are these people truly happy? ...are they truly happy? I am surrounded by people who stay inside with them... ...but I am all alone as I walk through this city with no people. All I want right now, more than anything else... ...is to be with him. The glow inside is brightest when that person is near... ...and the pain inside hurts more when he is away. I am happiest when I think about that person... ...I am saddest when I think about that person. That person makes all my feelings more intense. That must be what love is. So please... ...let the person that I love... ...be the "someone just for me."