it's been a long time since i wanted to update this website.
my motivation for a long of things is dead, unfortunately.
i am in poor health recently, my blood pressure being chronically high and i have resting tachycardia.
i've been put on a lot of medications, and i'm hoping everything remains under control.
i don't really know if anyone's listening. if you are, thank you.
jamie paige's deluxe edition of their album constant companions released a short bit ago.
i don't necessarily think it's fair to tell someone their works saved their life,
though i believe that while i may not have saved mine,
this album as changed my outlook on life for the better.
clouddrop made me cry even after it ended. i wish i could describe just how cathartic it was to me.
also, as of june 20th, i am now dating one of my bestest friends.
we're a butchfemme couple and he is very sweet to me. he bought me a promise ring and i wear it nearly every day.
it has a pink, heart-shaped stone embdedded in it. it's the most gorgeous ring i've ever owned.
i'm planning on saving up lots of money to visit him next year. i want to see him so, so badly.
say whatever you want about me, but though i am struggling, i think i'm finally on the road to becoming happy.
my happiness is a fickle thing, i'm moody, i'm a bit of a misanthropist at times, but i'm in love. i'm in love and i'm happy.
regardless of what happens in the future, i want to live.
thank you for reading my rambles. with love, millie ♡
09.20.24 ♡ friday ♡ mood: hand hurty :(
hello, world! you're reading my first entry to this diary!
yesterday, i officially launched engelical! isn't my website cute?
most pages are with base code made by adilene, though my sanrio shrine & hyacinth's profile were coded myself.
if you recognize the codes... this is, in fact, my new website! i wanted a bit of a fresh start on neocities, so here i am!
(also, i drew all of my hyacinth assets in one day... forgive me for any mess.)
onto personal things...
as of this week, i officially have a perfect "princess bedspread." complete with bows, ruffles, and a fluffy duvet.
my bed used to never really be comfortable due to using old, worn out blankets and pillow cases, but these are very soft! i'm super happy about it.
but it's so comfortable that i'm having trouble feeling motivated to do anything but lay in it... maybe i was too greedy? (www)
currently, i am wishing that there were more sugarbunnies merchandise available in US stores. i think they might have hit their peak in 2007 and died.
that's it for this entry! sorry for the short length... i'm going to rest my hand, as my chronic pain is flaring up from drawing and editing this site so much...
with love, millie ♡